Saturday, July 21, 2012

I am Lost!

I have been keeping an eye on Ashleigh. Ashleigh has gotten worse. I had to called the head therapist tonight because of what Ashleigh did.  Shawn & I were writing up our grocery list in the dining room & we put the kids to bed. It was bad.  Ash said Zeus pooped in Ethan's room (I am not sure if he did or he did not).  She took that poop & used Ethan's toys & ran them into it.  The trucks, cars, etc.  There was not that many, but there were marks on the carpet & chucks of poop in places.  The big truck we throw it out.  While I picked up the chucks (sorry for the grossness of this), I had Noah bring me my cell so I could call the head therapist.  I told her what Ash did in the morning & right then. This morning was trying to get me to think that Ethan peed on the potty when in fact it was her.  It was a mess to clean up.  Ashleigh wants attention.  She did this in Ethan's room because he gets the most attention.  What is next with her?  She is mad at the world, mad that she has special needs.  I am so lost.  

The head therapist told me about this program they have.  It is for the entire family.  Monday morning she will told to someone in the office so we can get into it.  It is to help the family handle Ashleigh. 

Does anyone have a child that hates having special needs?  Is mad at the world?  Takes it out on their siblings?  I would love to talk with another family.  How you handled this?  We are getting more help, but I would love to know what else I can do for my daughter.  I do not want to put her into a treatment center.  I want her at home.  She is so sad, so angry.  She is learning she is different than kids her age.  I do not know how to help her.  We will have to do the paperwork for this program.  Monday when the head therapist is here, we will learn more about this program.  

I am not sure if this is important, but for 2 nights now Ashleigh has been sleeping in my room.  She does not want to be alone.  I think she wants to be close to Zeus, who is attached to me because of his separation anxiety.  I wonder how I can get Zeus to bond with Ashleigh so she can feel better.  I want Zeus to spend more time with Ashleigh especially at night.  I think this is the reason she is spending in my room.  She sleeps close to where Zeus does.  I wish we could get her a service dog for Ashleigh.  I think it would help her depression a lot.

Melissa

1 comment:

  1. Hi melissa as you know I have special needs although I did not act out in the way that ash is right now I remember the time when i realizzed I was different It was hard and it hurt for a long time.
    I did not do to my siblings what ahs has doen but my sisters were very jelous of me for lack of a better word because they did not understand why I got more attention than they did. I know ash gets attention that he others do not because of her special needs but soemtimes it still doesnt sseem like its enough it is hard to watch younger siblings do things that you can not I dont know how much help I can be but if you want to talek message me anytime on facebook or in group many hugs hang in there girl its tough

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