Things are getting harder to do. Today we met up with Ethan's friend & his family. We go to the same spot. It has a creek there that the kids love to explore (aka get wet)! Find bugs, etc. Normally we all sit around a picnic table and talk. It is nice. Adult time while the kids run off & explore. This time was different. I couldn't sit long at the picnic table so Noah got one of the soccer chairs from the van. You know those fold-up chairs in a bag. We keep two in the van to hold the wheelchair in its place. The boys don't play soccer anymore, but the way I have the van set up with the small seat down in the back. It helps the wheelchair not to move around with the two chairs to the left of the wheelchair.
Last time we were there from about 12:30-7p. The kids were having a lot of fun. Today we left at 3:30p because I could not sit anymore. We went to Walmart to get some meat for dinner, but by the time we got home, I knew I could not stand on my feet to make dinner so we had a kids' choice night. I went up to bed to rest. An hour or so later, I came down to get my food, a breakfast bowl, that is easy to make. I went back up to bed to continue resting.
As I sit here, I know I should go back to my bed & use the heating pad again. I took pain meds, which worked a little bit, but did not take the pain away entirely. I am still mad as hell at this driver. He changed my life and it was not in a good way.
Add in that I am back to teaching Noah to drive. We started yesterday. I am getting panicky while he is driving. I know Noah is doing well behind the wheel, but it is memories of the accident coming back to me. This car accident has affected everyone in my family. I can't forgive this guy. I won't.
Melissa
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